on Thu Jul 26, 2007 11:06 am
I know I've been avoiding you guys. I'm sorting all of this out on an emotional level, and I'm not sure how long it will take. Seeing his body like that, meeting his daughter, and piecing together the story . . . or rather, finding huge pieces missing . . . well, I don't need to tell you, but it's a mess. Internally too. I'm a mess, and it's easy to pop in here and type out this message knowing that I wont be dump trucked with questions and ideas.
I guess that being a part of this, and THAT's the difference, I'm part of it now. Writing those words and seeing them on the screen set me into a panic just now. A small one, but I have those mental flashes of Maddison and Adam . Does it need to be said that I don't want to end up like them?
I'm late for work, so I need to sign off here.