LG15: RP

david jerr (grounded_falcon) wrote,
@ 2009-02-16 08:14:00

Not Exactly As I Planned.

"If Only I'd" syndrome is a killer. Right now, I'm only having one. If only I hadn't let Lauren use that laptop. Would things have been different?

Let me start from...well, I don't know if it's the beginning or not. We went in. Several times. We finally found her at the Youth Center. She wouldn't come with us. Even now, she holds on to that "other David" like he's her only hope for salvation. In taking her back, we basically proved to her that everything the Order had been saying about us was true. I should have expected that they'd get to her quickly...she was already programmed, after all. My fault.

So we were no longer recuers, coming to save her from an awful fate; We were kidnappers, ignoring a young girl's pleas and those of her father to just leave them alone. We were terrorists, prying a sick young girl's hands from her father and shoving her into a car. We were murderers, shooting that man in the back while he carried his daughter to safety. We were...monsters, bombing a Center which housed a hundred innocent children, youth and volunteers.

I don't know if we can get her back now.

Beyond that, Bree's gone. I don't know where she got the idea that she was not of help, but she did. And there's this maniac going around with some sort of vendetta against trait-positive girls. I guess his way makes sense in some sort of...twisted way...but there must be another way to get rid of the trait positive blood without killing the girls. If only he knew what Dr. Hart and I were working on before... If only I had kept Lauren with me. If only I had demanded to know who this friend was. If only...

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